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Mignon Ann Bloch For the Eulogy - please click here In Loving Memory - 14 April 2008 7 years have flown by. It's hard to believe. Equally astounding has been the reaction from people to these pages dedicated to my mother. I appreciate all the kind thoughts and its been wonderful that others have been spurred on to do the same sort of thing. This will be my last entry - but that doesn't mean my mother has been forgotten. It's just that these dedications have served their purpose as an acknowledgement and expression of gratitude to my mother, a public apology to her and as a way for me to deal with my own grief and guilt concerning her life and death. An important event occurred in the last couple of weeks. My grandmother, my mother's mother passed away. For a parent to outlive their child must be a difficult thing - under the circumstances it's quite possible karma came into play; particularly given some of the flow on effects from her passing. However strained my relationship with my grandmother was I sincerely hope that if there is an afterlife, my mother and grandmother and now patching up old wounds. My mother was the type of person who didn't bear grudges; no matter what level of pain was inflicted upon her - it's an admirable attribute that wasn't imparted to me. Death is a messy affair - it can bring families together, but it can also expose the rot in the woodwork. I have learned a great deal about my family since my mother's death - enough to no longer feel guilty about having no contact with many of its members. There's no anger, they are simply ghosts, disconnected from me as much as those who pass me by in the street. Speaking of ghosts, there's still been no visitation from my mother over the years, so my questions about the afterlife, or lack thereof remain. As I've said previously, I guess she has better things to do - and I certainly hope that's the case :). Mum,
thank you again for the lessons you taught me and for those I am yet to
learn. I'll see you on the other side. |
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