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Mignon Ann Bloch For the Eulogy - please click here In Loving Memory - 14 April 2003 2 years have gone by now. All things pass with time they say and I guess it's true to a degree. "Pass" is probably not a good term, some things simply hide for a while, the periods growing longer as time goes by and the intensity of their return decreases. To feel pain isn't a bad thing; it reminds me that I am human after all. I don't want to forget my mother and I still remember her every day. I still apologize to her every day. Every day I see something that reminds me of an aspect of her that will bring a smile to my face or perhaps the sting of tears in my eyes. It's all good. I'm still angry with the world and myself for my mothers' life, but that is pointless I guess. But perhaps in some ways it is a lesson that I need to revisit from time to time; not to lose those feelings entirely. We are all here for such a short time and none of us really know when that time will be over for ourselves or our loved ones - there's always "tomorrow" isn't there? Then one day, tomorrow never comes. So, have I learned from the lessons from my mothers' life and death and applied the knowledge yet? Not really.. Am I a better person than I was a year ago? No.. Will I be a better person one year from now? I certainly hope so, and there really is no excuse not to be - my mother set a fine example for me to follow. My mother passed some of her fine traits on to me, I just buried them with crap. The past 8 years has been spent trying to remove that garbage I brought upon myself, but my progress has slowed in the last 12 months. It's days like this when the memories of my mother are brought to the forefront of my mind that I'm reminded that the battle is far from over. It's a tragedy my mother had to die to provide me with these reminders. I'm sorry Mum. I wish I could talk with you. Thank you for everything you did for me and tried to do for me. I
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